I can’t find myself I get lost inside my brain I think I might need help But I pushed all of them way I took cards they dealt And there’s nothing I can change So when I’m by myself I just pray for brighter days
Sometimes I sit and I reminisce bout the good times wish I could get those back I keep on running these races that go in my mind then they go on these tracks I’m not ready to erase all my memories I fight depression and I let it get the best of me now there’s nowhere to run, nowhere to go look around its liquor bottles all on the floor filling up the space inside my heart and my home drowning out these thoughts until they leave me alone
I can’t find myself I get lost inside my brain I think I might need help But I pushed all of them way I Took cards they dealt And there’s nothing I can change So when I’m by myself I just pray for brighter days
These thoughts are draining all my energy I try to tell em to God they say i’m going insane And then they recommended therapy and to go and talk to a man who’s getting paid to explain He started saying That the chemical imbalance is the reason that my brain ain’t connecting to accomplishments associated with moving on in life and past the things that my heart cannot contain So the happiness won’t sustain Then he read me my options he said here goes a pill only take two with A meal and It’ll numb how I feel
I can’t find myself I get lost inside my brain I think I might need help But I pushed all of them way I Took cards they dealt And there’s nothing I can change So when I’m by myself I just pray for brighter days
Should I drown all these thoughts or should I leave them to float? I got all of my flaws living inside of this boat I’ve been anchored in pain the weight is making me choke It’s getting harder to breathe it’s pulling right at my throat I’ve been hoping for change but don’t know how to restart they say you ain’t a man when you exposing your heart Then they say you’re insane until it tears you apart And then it cuts you so deep and they can tell by the scars We can only see change when we accept who we are Try to run from the shame and you will never get far Don’t you bottle the pain or live your life in the dark You’re meant break from those chains and shine as bright as a star Don’t you ever tell yourself that your depression is the reason you won’t make it or that happiness is not in your cards with our God you can beat all the odds keep your faith and you’ll never get lost and say
I can’t find myself I get lost inside my brain I think I might need help But I pushed all of them way I Took cards they dealt And there’s nothing I can change So when I’m by myself I just pray for brighter days