Chandler Leighton - A Letter to Everyone Who’s Hurt Me | Lyrics

I thought it was normal to watch your parents fight
It taught me disfunction was just part of life
That love's just a word that we use to excuse our mistakes
Now I can't tell if I'm afraid or just jaded
I guess I'm just scared to end up the way they did
How do I unlearn the ways to deal with pain when that was all they taught me?
To everyone I've loved who's let me down
Let this letter hold what I can't say out loud

What do I owe you for who I became?
Should I say thank you or curse your name?
Do I give you credit or all of the blame?
'Cause growth and pain always feel thе same
Feel the same, feel thе same

Answer the question, still got a lot of doubts
Learned every lessons but kept you around
'Cause there's comfort in chaos and you can't just pray that shit off
It's insane to me that you could be the medicine in our disease
A cigarette that's killin' me and I still wanna breathe in
I keep tryna wash off the smell, but it stuck on my skin

What do I owe you for who I became?
Should I say thank you or curse your name?
Do I give you credit or all of the blame?
'Cause growth and pain always feel the same
I thought I could fix you, see, you wanted change
But when will I learn that's a damn mistake?
And I'll keep on givin' 'til my body breaks
'Cause growth and pain always feel the same
Feel the same, feel the same

Still don't know the difference, I hope that can change
'Cause love and hate, they still feel the same, feel the same